My best friend touched me and i liked it gay

I was talking to a mutual friend who is bi and came out to my best friend. I think it also helped me realize that I have a very romanticized idea of relationships and falling in love. When we're taught to repress our sexuality, the lines between intimacy and friendship blur.

Loving someone the majority of your life without ever being able to be with them is hell on earth. A lot. I never responded. Last night My best friend, for the past 3 years, came over. And sometimes that hurts. Si69 likes this. Now my first time wasn’t just with any random dude that I met in a bar or hooked up with online, it was actually with my best friend which only makes it more memorable.

That was seven years ago. Fantasies became real. But I like to think I did the right thing for myself and my mental health. I didn't tell her how I felt until years later. I retracted the invite and that was the last time we ever spoke. He's aware I still have strong feelings for him to this day.

He told me that my best friend struggle with gay feelings for a long time, but he claims that god "fixed him". By senior year, she had a serious boyfriend, and we grew distant because it was too hard for me. It drives me nuts that I'll never know if he said those things because he was drunk or if something could have actually happened between us.

Long story short, he told me stories of his past took 4 hours. It hurt going through my whole sexual awakening alone. He never came out to me because he was afraid of the way I would react, if I would distance myself. We stayed much the same for the rest of school. I went for it.

Just because it feels like the plot of a rom-com doesn't mean that you'll end up dating the person you have feelings for. We started texting, FaceTiming, and eventually hanging out again — all 'platonic. My feelings for her progressed throughout high school. been there. I couldn't resist the temptation, but I wish I had.

Which I tried my best not to, the catch was he admitted he was in love with me. Cum to find out he has fantasies of me sucking his dick, and has dreamed of him fucking me. Cool guy. We go to dinner once a year to celebrate our birthdays and catch up, and even though my feelings for her are long gone, I am always taken back to why I fell for her 10 years ago.

In retrospect, I was in love with her and allowed myself to think it was at least partially reciprocated because of the attention she gave me when she was single. He called me his best friend recently and it felt like someone punched me in the gut. I am now proud to be pansexual, and I've learned that you can't control other people's feelings or actions, only your own.

By the time we met again, my feelings of heartache and nostalgia had finally passed. I also now identify as a lesbian. My only regret is not being bolder sooner, in all aspects of my life. Went to his wedding to a wonderful girl a month before the pandemic hit. And the prospect of healing our trauma with a friend that we're attracted to is hard to ignore I'm that idiot who loved someone straight, despite knowing the reality that they would never love me back.

Lust gets tangled into love. When we were I finally got round to asking him if he was gay, he hadn't come out yet but it was painfully obvious. It's not healthy. I wasted so many years wincing my way through sex with men not knowing how much I could enjoy sex with a woman!